We need the courage to look this problem in the face and say, this is real and this is all of us.
Like the single word, "Paperdolls" we are all connected.
Cancer is one of the lingering negative effects of my childhood sexual abuse. I’ve had 4 different types of cancer. When I received my last diagnosis, I was furious. You see, I want to live. I love my life.
Which is yet another reason, I’ve started the other sections of Paperdolls~Today. I am so much more than just a sexual abuse survivor. The various new sections illustrate how I’ve thrived during the last 30+ years. I’m respectful of your time and your inbox, so if you don’t want to read some of the sections or you really want to ensure you are getting the information on all the sections, please follow substack’s instructions on subscribing/unsubscribing.
Back to these pesky cancer diagnosis’s that I must maintain the utmost vigilance: I am hopeful that medical science will extend my life. I’m even hopeful that there will be a cure to cancer, all cancers. Until then, I am going to live with authenticity and joy. Hopefully my story can help others do so as well. Potentially, by sharing my story, it will help bring awareness about the public health threat of Childhood Sexual Abuse.
In the words of Dr. Robert Block, the former President of the American Academy of Pediatrics, "Adverse childhood experiences are the single greatest unaddressed public health threat facing our nation today."
I am appalled that in 2024, 65% of Utahns disagree that the sexual abuse of children is a problem. I go to symposiums and dedicated professionals are regurgitating the same old mantras of 30 years ago.1
The adverse childhood trauma I experienced altered my biology. There’s proof. And, the fact that my cancers are linked to the abuse I suffered as a child is very annoying.
Here is Dr. Nadine Burke Harris’s TED Talk from 2014, explaining “How childhood trauma affects health across a lifetime:”
Transcript:
0:12 In the mid-'90s,
0:14 the CDC and Kaiser Permanente
0:16 discovered an exposure that dramatically increased the risk
0:20 for seven out of 10 of the leading causes of death in the United States.
0:26 In high doses, it affects brain development,
0:30 the immune system, hormonal systems,
0:34 and even the way our DNA is read and transcribed.
0:38 Folks who are exposed in very high doses
0:42 have triple the lifetime risk of heart disease and lung cancer
0:46 and a 20-year difference in life expectancy.
0:51 And yet, doctors today are not trained in routine screening or treatment.
0:58 Now, the exposure I'm talking about is not a pesticide or a packaging chemical.
1:03 It's childhood trauma.
1:06 Okay. What kind of trauma am I talking about here?
1:09 I'm not talking about failing a test or losing a basketball game.
1:13 I am talking about threats that are so severe or pervasive
1:18 that they literally get under our skin and change our physiology:
1:23 things like abuse or neglect,
1:25 or growing up with a parent who struggles with mental illness
1:29 or substance dependence.
1:31 Now, for a long time,
1:33 I viewed these things in the way I was trained to view them,
1:36 either as a social problem -- refer to social services --
1:40 or as a mental health problem -- refer to mental health services.
1:46 And then something happened to make me rethink my entire approach.
1:51 When I finished my residency,
1:53 I wanted to go someplace where I felt really needed,
1:57 someplace where I could make a difference.
2:00 So I came to work for California Pacific Medical Center,
2:03 one of the best private hospitals in Northern California,
2:07 and together, we opened a clinic in Bayview-Hunters Point,
2:12 one of the poorest, most underserved neighborhoods in San Francisco.
2:16 Now, prior to that point,
2:18 there had been only one pediatrician in all of Bayview
2:20 to serve more than 10,000 children,
2:24 so we hung a shingle, and we were able to provide top-quality care
2:29 regardless of ability to pay.
2:31 It was so cool. We targeted the typical health disparities:
2:35 access to care, immunization rates, asthma hospitalization rates,
2:40 and we hit all of our numbers.
2:42 We felt very proud of ourselves.
2:45 But then I started noticing a disturbing trend.
2:48 A lot of kids were being referred to me for ADHD,
2:52 or Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder,
2:55 but when I actually did a thorough history and physical,
3:00 what I found was that for most of my patients,
3:03 I couldn't make a diagnosis of ADHD.
3:07 Most of the kids I was seeing had experienced such severe trauma
3:12 that it felt like something else was going on.
3:16 Somehow I was missing something important.
3:21 Now, before I did my residency, I did a master's degree in public health,
3:25 and one of the things that they teach you in public health school
3:28 is that if you're a doctor
3:30 and you see 100 kids that all drink from the same well,
3:34 and 98 of them develop diarrhea,
3:37 you can go ahead and write that prescription
3:39 for dose after dose after dose of antibiotics,
3:44 or you can walk over and say, "What the hell is in this well?"
3:49 So I began reading everything that I could get my hands on
3:53 about how exposure to adversity
3:56 affects the developing brains and bodies of children.
3:59 And then one day, my colleague walked into my office,
4:03 and he said, "Dr. Burke, have you seen this?"
4:08 In his hand was a copy of a research study
4:12 called the Adverse Childhood Experiences Study.
4:16 That day changed my clinical practice and ultimately my career.
4:24 The Adverse Childhood Experiences Study
4:26 is something that everybody needs to know about.
4:29 It was done by Dr. Vince Felitti at Kaiser and Dr. Bob Anda at the CDC,
4:35 and together, they asked 17,500 adults about their history of exposure
4:43 to what they called "adverse childhood experiences," or ACEs.
4:48 Those include physical, emotional, or sexual abuse;
4:52 physical or emotional neglect;
4:56 parental mental illness, substance dependence, incarceration;
4:59 parental separation or divorce;
5:02 or domestic violence.
5:05 For every yes, you would get a point on your ACE score.
5:09 And then what they did
5:11 was they correlated these ACE scores against health outcomes.
5:16 What they found was striking.
5:19 Two things:
5:20 Number one, ACEs are incredibly common.
5:25 Sixty-seven percent of the population had at least one ACE,
5:32 and 12.6 percent, one in eight, had four or more ACEs.
5:38 The second thing that they found
5:40 was that there was a dose-response relationship
5:44 between ACEs and health outcomes:
5:49 the higher your ACE score, the worse your health outcomes.
5:52 For a person with an ACE score of four or more,
5:56 their relative risk of chronic obstructive pulmonary disease
5:59 was two and a half times that of someone with an ACE score of zero.
6:05 For hepatitis, it was also two and a half times.
6:08 For depression, it was four and a half times.
6:11 For suicidality, it was 12 times.
6:15 A person with an ACE score of seven or more
6:18 had triple the lifetime risk of lung cancer
6:22 and three and a half times the risk of ischemic heart disease,
6:26 the number one killer in the United States of America.
6:31 Well, of course this makes sense.
6:33 Some people looked at this data and they said, "Come on.
6:38 You have a rough childhood, you're more likely to drink and smoke
6:43 and do all these things that are going to ruin your health.
6:46 This isn't science. This is just bad behavior."
6:50 It turns out this is exactly where the science comes in.
6:55 We now understand better than we ever have before
7:00 how exposure to early adversity
7:03 affects the developing brains and bodies of children.
7:06 It affects areas like the nucleus accumbens,
7:09 the pleasure and reward center of the brain
7:12 that is implicated in substance dependence.
7:14 It inhibits the prefrontal cortex,
7:17 which is necessary for impulse control and executive function,
7:21 a critical area for learning.
7:23 And on MRI scans,
7:25 we see measurable differences in the amygdala,
7:29 the brain's fear response center.
7:32 So there are real neurologic reasons
7:35 why folks exposed to high doses of adversity
7:39 are more likely to engage in high-risk behavior,
7:42 and that's important to know.
7:44 But it turns out that even if you don't engage in any high-risk behavior,
7:50 you're still more likely to develop heart disease or cancer.
7:56 The reason for this has to do with the hypothalamic–pituitary–adrenal axis,
8:02 the brain's and body's stress response system
8:05 that governs our fight-or-flight response.
8:09 How does it work?
8:11 Well, imagine you're walking in the forest and you see a bear.
8:15 Immediately, your hypothalamus sends a signal to your pituitary,
8:19 which sends a signal to your adrenal gland that says,
8:21 "Release stress hormones! Adrenaline! Cortisol!"
8:25 And so your heart starts to pound,
8:28 Your pupils dilate, your airways open up,
8:30 and you are ready to either fight that bear or run from the bear.
8:36 And that is wonderful
8:38 if you're in a forest and there's a bear.
8:42 (Laughter)
8:44 But the problem is what happens when the bear comes home every night,
8:50 and this system is activated over and over and over again,
8:55 and it goes from being adaptive, or life-saving,
9:00 to maladaptive, or health-damaging.
9:04 Children are especially sensitive to this repeated stress activation,
9:10 because their brains and bodies are just developing.
9:14 High doses of adversity not only affect brain structure and function,
9:20 they affect the developing immune system,
9:23 developing hormonal systems,
9:26 and even the way our DNA is read and transcribed.
9:32 So for me, this information threw my old training out the window,
9:36 because when we understand the mechanism of a disease,
9:40 when we know not only which pathways are disrupted, but how,
9:45 then as doctors, it is our job to use this science
9:50 for prevention and treatment.
9:52 That's what we do.
9:54 So in San Francisco, we created the Center for Youth Wellness
9:58 to prevent, screen and heal the impacts of ACEs and toxic stress.
10:04 We started simply with routine screening of every one of our kids
10:08 at their regular physical,
10:10 because I know that if my patient has an ACE score of 4,
10:15 she's two and a half times as likely to develop hepatitis or COPD,
10:19 she's four and half times as likely to become depressed,
10:22 and she's 12 times as likely to attempt to take her own life
10:26 as my patient with zero ACEs.
10:28 I know that when she's in my exam room.
10:32 For our patients who do screen positive,
10:35 we have a multidisciplinary treatment team that works to reduce the dose of adversity
10:40 and treat symptoms using best practices, including home visits, care coordination,
10:46 mental health care, nutrition,
10:50 holistic interventions, and yes, medication when necessary.
10:54 But we also educate parents about the impacts of ACEs and toxic stress
10:59 the same way you would for covering electrical outlets, or lead poisoning,
11:04 and we tailor the care of our asthmatics and our diabetics
11:08 in a way that recognizes that they may need more aggressive treatment,
11:13 given the changes to their hormonal and immune systems.
11:17 So the other thing that happens when you understand this science
11:21 is that you want to shout it from the rooftops,
11:24 because this isn't just an issue for kids in Bayview.
11:29 I figured the minute that everybody else heard about this,
11:32 it would be routine screening, multi-disciplinary treatment teams,
11:36 and it would be a race to the most effective clinical treatment protocols.
11:41 Yeah. That did not happen.
11:45 And that was a huge learning for me.
11:48 What I had thought of as simply best clinical practice
11:52 I now understand to be a movement.
11:57 In the words of Dr. Robert Block,
11:59 the former President of the American Academy of Pediatrics,
12:03 "Adverse childhood experiences
12:06 are the single greatest unaddressed public health threat
12:11 facing our nation today."
12:13 And for a lot of people, that's a terrifying prospect.
12:18 The scope and scale of the problem seems so large that it feels overwhelming
12:23 to think about how we might approach it.
12:26 But for me, that's actually where the hopes lies,
12:30 because when we have the right framework,
12:33 when we recognize this to be a public health crisis,
12:38 then we can begin to use the right tool kit to come up with solutions.
12:43 From tobacco to lead poisoning to HIV/AIDS,
12:47 the United States actually has quite a strong track record
12:52 with addressing public health problems,
12:55 but replicating those successes with ACEs and toxic stress
13:00 is going to take determination and commitment,
13:05 and when I look at what our nation's response has been so far,
13:09 I wonder,
13:11 why haven't we taken this more seriously?
13:15 You know, at first I thought that we marginalized the issue
13:18 because it doesn't apply to us.
13:20 That's an issue for those kids in those neighborhoods.
13:24 Which is weird, because the data doesn't bear that out.
13:28 The original ACEs study was done in a population
13:32 that was 70 percent Caucasian,
13:35 70 percent college-educated.
13:38 But then, the more I talked to folks,
13:41 I'm beginning to think that maybe I had it completely backwards.
13:47 If I were to ask how many people in this room
13:53 grew up with a family member who suffered from mental illness,
13:57 I bet a few hands would go up.
14:00 And then if I were to ask how many folks had a parent who maybe drank too much,
14:05 or who really believed that if you spare the rod, you spoil the child,
14:11 I bet a few more hands would go up.
14:14 Even in this room, this is an issue that touches many of us,
14:19 and I am beginning to believe that we marginalize the issue
14:22 because it does apply to us.
14:25 Maybe it's easier to see in other zip codes
14:28 because we don't want to look at it.
14:31 We'd rather be sick.
14:34 Fortunately, scientific advances and, frankly, economic realities
14:40 make that option less viable every day.
14:45 The science is clear:
14:47 Early adversity dramatically affects health across a lifetime.
14:53 Today, we are beginning to understand how to interrupt the progression
14:58 from early adversity to disease and early death,
15:02 and 30 years from now,
15:05 the child who has a high ACE score
15:07 and whose behavioral symptoms go unrecognized,
15:11 whose asthma management is not connected,
15:13 and who goes on to develop high blood pressure
15:16 and early heart disease or cancer
15:19 will be just as anomalous as a six-month mortality from HIV/AIDS.
15:24 People will look at that situation and say, "What the heck happened there?"
15:30 This is treatable.
15:32 This is beatable.
15:35 The single most important thing that we need today
15:39 is the courage to look this problem in the face
15:43 and say, this is real and this is all of us.
15:48 I believe that we are the movement.
15:52 Thank you.
15:54 (Applause)
These are important, but we must do more:
We must address the healing for men survivors (not all males who are abused turn into perpetrators and to ignore this significant portion of our population is egregious).
We must ensure that all in the medical professional understand the biological changes that happen when children experience trauma, especially childhood sexual abuse.
I wrote about this here also:
Heartbreaking